God: God is as committed to you as you are to Him. It is a private, personal and mutual relationship. He will not be in your life if you do not want him to be. He will not guide you if you want your independence and don’t truly want to be guided.
Do you want to be given a path to follow, or do you want to find your own way? You can’t have it both ways…
Me: Why? You see THAT is my problem…why is it not possible to have constant counsel, to have a guide show me the way, what he wants from me, and then for me to say “Thanks ever so much, but I’ve decided not to take your advice on this issue and I’m going to do it my way instead.”? Maybe it won’t turn out better for me or the world in the long run but, having made me an individual, how is it fair to then expect me not to be one, and instead to be completely selfless and serve your agenda all the time?
People who have vision, who know what they want and go after it, they’re normally compelled to do so by an outside force…I see that now…they are in more direct contact with the collective unconscious, they are carrying out God’s will and they know that it is the right thing to do. People who question this…question whether “the right thing to do” is in actual fact the right thing to do suffer from procrastination and from doubt, but at least they are not blindly following some external prompt that they’ve mistaken for coming from within them. They are trying to think things through, to weigh their moral worth, to apply some logic and rationality and objectivity.
Unfortunately, being the individual beings we are, we cannot see enough of the big picture to make properly logical and rational decisions – our individuality causes us to always be self-serving first, whether consciously or unconsciously, and so we will always skew reality in order to make it make the most sense to us personally…in essence by trying to make logical and rational choices for ourselves we will 99% of the time act the wrong way for the world, imposing more irrationality upon it.
It’s not really about trust and doubt, whether I trust the path that God or the collective unconscious would prefer I follow, it’s about autonomy. Why have you given us autonomy if you don’t want us to use it? Was it a mistake? I think you gave it to us in order to separate us from you, so that you could see yourself from an outside perspective – you wanted to know yourself, perhaps it was even narcissism, creating us as a mirror to preen in front of, but in doing so you gave us the will to live as individuals, to only see what we want to see, think what we want to think, do what we want to do. You lost control of us. You lost us. Like a parent who has to let their child go into the world and make their own way, make their own mistakes, you know you shouldn’t interfere unless asked but you can’t help trying to manipulate things behind the scenes in order to help the child, to help them not to suffer, to try to make them what YOU wanted them to become, to live vicariously through them, have them live your own dreams, rather than leaving them completely to their own devices.
Here’s the thing: If you didn’t err in giving us autonomy, then it’s the natural way of things for us to want to take our own path, to fight against outside influence, to execute our free will at all costs, sometimes just out of principle…which may not be “right” and may end in our destruction and may end in the destruction of our planet, but it’s the way things have to be. You may be right and we may be wrong but it’s the human way to try things out, make the mistakes and hopefully learn from them. We like learning and experimenting and we can’t learn things for ourselves if we just do what we are told all the time – there is no sense of growth, or accomplishment that way, and we need that to give meaning to our lives, because we need to have that sense of meaning and self-defined purpose…we do not want to be robots, however happy and at peace we might be if we were.
If you did err in giving us autonomy, then you’re not perfect. To err is human, right? If you ever were perfect, then you fell from grace the moment you made that mistake and gave us autonomy. You may have spent the rest of the time since trying to make up for that mistake, trying to fix it but it cannot be. It’s too late. The only way to fix it is to go back in time and not do it next time around. If you’re not doing that (or can’t) then you have to leave things the way they are and forgive yourself, adapt to the new way of things, stop wishing that things were back the way they were, because it is not possible. Learn to work together with us, play by the new rules, stop being angry at us for wanting to do our own thing and try to work out a way of using that to the advantage of the world, and guide us towards that. Stop relying on hypnosis, start explaining, give us reasons why we should do the things you want us to do, form an alliance with us, a partnership, an equal relationship where we can dialogue with each other, not just receive instructions one-way which we can ignore or pretend we didn’t hear.
God: Stop telling me what to do! I don’t need your counsel! I know what’s best for me, for everyone, you dumbass!
Me: Ha ha! See? It’s annoying isn’t it, even though you know I’m making complete sense.
*God goes off in a huff*